alright... i'm so bored now.
roche cheated us. made us came back and he haven even start writing yet.
gotta wait till 12.30pm.
guess they're really busy.
met seah and as usual, making fun of each other.
what a lecturer. faints~
so ps to tell him that we asked for roche because of the reference.
we wanted to ask him to write but he wasn't around.
so yup.
for now, all we can do is just to entertain ourselves with the lib com that is super lag in ebuddy.

so tired now...
feeling so unwell.
quarreled with him till like 6+am in the morning?

just feel like going back home to sleep...

oh ya! chatted with paulynn yesterday on the phone.
chatted till about 2.30am before i slept.
alright. so coincidental.
right after i blogged, talked to her on the phone,
she then told me, she broke up with him. like again!
patched less than a week only!! damn super shocked.
but then, this time round, the reason, i guess this would be better as well.

then what about us?
always quarreling...
so damn sian.
will we end up like them one day?

feelings will fade,
as time passes?
comfortness from each other,
will be the thing that keeps this rs going.
that's what he said.

i still believe in love.
love strong, keeps everything going.
if in a rs, there's no more feelings.
then no point continuing...

4 msg from him that consist of him wanting to intro his close gf to me and believe that we'll become gd friends. i feel the pressure and the 'force' from him to become friends with her. not just friends, but good friends.
for me, i believe that the more a bf 'promotes' a girl infront or to his gf, the more jealous the gf will feel and the more 'barrier or rejections' the gf will have towards that girl. i think it works the same way for guys as well...
who on earth will feel comfortable about it man...
maybe it's reverse pyschology.
being neutral about someone, n meeting up with that person, will makes everything good.
why? no 'promotion' going on, discovers slowly about the person and fine with everything.
but even before meeting, heard so much about that person, jealousy there, don't even feel like meeting the person, creates a barrier in between. what's more? quarreling matters that involve her. that makes all sense then.
now, i fear of meeting her. or rather, i don't or won't feel comfortable when meetin her.
it takes months at least for me to classify one as a friend that should be cherished and remain contact. what's more for a good friend?
she maybe suitable to be very close with him but might not work on me.
everyone's character varies.
and you cannot just set a statement that she'll be my good friend if i know her well enough.
if i feel she's good enough, she will be and don't even need u to tell me.

but for now, it's really hard.
barrier between me and her.
so just take it naturally and stop 'promoting' her as a good friend.
i don't feel good, just in case you didn't realise.
that's all i've got to say.

each time we quarrel, i'll take the initiative to msg or contact him, no matter what content of the msg can be. some crap or a random remark or whatsoever. just to get him to contact me. dumbo me. oh well... but not this time round already.
feeling so tired and restless...

just wanna home sweet home...
hope he really understand or can understand how i'm feeling.
oh wellllllsss......