quarrels & more quarrels. what's new?

forgot to update some stuff...

1st march- nic's b'day
4th march- chek's b'day
10th march- joc's b'day
26th march- sheena's b'day

18th april- his b'day
19th april- zhong's b'day

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ok. chatted with paulynn these days cause both of us were really bored.
she was at home. but still, i couldn't go out to meet her at simpang.
this girl is richer than i thought. LOL
glad she patched back with alex.
at least i have another companion if we all ever meet up.

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just quarreled again. ok already then quarreled again.

1st matter: at jurong point, when it was going home time, i felt f sian. i started becoming super duper moody and stuff. i have no idea what to do when i reach home. on the way home in the cab, i teared. life is so boring, seriously. i alighted at the bus stop so i could waste more time. but really super duper dangerous at night that area because lots of indians and blanglas and china workers. especially indians. they like to buy bottles of beer and sit on the grass patch infront of the shophouses. reached home, emo again. teared. he called, kept asking what happened. i really have no idea. if i have, i would have done something about it. but i really don't know why i'm like this. really down, moody and emo. then he suddenly showed me att and then hung up. he knew i was crying, he showed me att. when i'm angry, he showed me att. when i'm sad, he showed me att. alright then. instead of consoling or whatsoever. then he kept msgin saying he's sorry and etc. he said whenever i'm unhappy, he would be affected. i replied, but u'll still be able to enjoy. then after trying to explain to me again, he said this,'duno how to explain to u. nvm. u wan angry then go ahead ba. sorry.' oh welll... seriously, if one wasn't that angry already, after reading this, i bet e situation will be worst. seriously, he doesn't know how to phrase his words and thats definitely not the way to do it. i was more pissed but i just said i wasn't angry.

2nd matter: the extends that he sets for himself and i are really so different. for me, he don't like the idea of me watching a movie with a guy. but yet, for himself, he ever asked to go malaysia with a close girl friend whom they knew each other for 6,7years? and alone. so just the both of them. i stil remember that happened during my nightwork at robinsons. i even cried during my nightwork. i strongly object but he kept giving his reasoning. now, i just wanna watch a movie with melvin. also cannot. seriously, what's this? after telling him about him gg to malaysia that matter, all he said was to go ahead since i'm so keen in going. seriously, whatever. this is seriously damn unfair. what else does he knows beside showing me att huh? right also show, wrong also show.

if i'm him ah, after hearing about the malaysia matter, i should feel alittle bad already cuz it's really unfair. should have just kept explaining and say sorry for that matter lorz instead of showing att.

he can go malaysia alone with a girl for hours. and i can't even watch a movie, which is less than 2 hrs with a guy alone. wtf seriously. he can feel insecure i cannot. i still rmb clearly, i was being said as CHILDISH, i don't know how to think and etc by him for that matter.

he just msg saying to him, going to malaysia is like shopping. i replied saying,' then will u allow me to go malaysia alone with a guy?'. his replied was,' aiya. u wan quarrel den go ahead la... always bringin the past out to say.' i said,' u haven ans my qns yet. will u allow?' his replied was,' no. tts y i nv go. ok i answered. u go ahead n quarrel.' [u didn't go but u really hurt me alot that period.] i replied,' is not i wanna quarrel. is e extend u set really unfair. i'm saying things nicely now lorz. dere's things u can do but i cant. but e things i do, u can do. if u think i wanna quarrel den alright den. i'm always e one finding fault. if u think it's fair den fair. u're e judge.'

true enuff. i do bring out the past to say. but y? because i felt unfair during that matter and rmb that clearly. now that i have a chance to compare the situation, why not? let you feel how i felt during that matter and then u'll be able to learn to understand why i was feeling that way.










whenever we quarrel,
i'll just feel we're really from two different worlds.
our thinkings can be so different...