*recap...

thurs(26july): met delvin at 10am for breakky oppo sch. kway chap. again, cold jokes from him. *faints. never fails one ah~ lent him my precious lappy. pls take good care of my precious ah... right. after which, it was lect and then i had to go down to robinson at the centrepoint to meet up with the HR in charge. she just want to see our faces. -_-. right... and she wrote down things like what do our parents work as, siblings and the career path in future, why chose retail n etc, on the application. dumb. anyway, went back to my place that area to meet melvin at miss u cafe. great ambience actually. great place to chill out and drink. drink what? wine~ jocelyn and elvin joined us later. lol. damn funny la~ elvin, melvin and delvin. all the "elvin". right. later on, elvin left and both of them came to my place to chill by the poolside. after jocelyn left, heart-to-heart chats again. and once again, i cried. emo-in~ just tired and fucked up with everything. damn tired... physically and mentally. melvin could tell i wasn't my usual self but filled with sadness. sorry. i just couldn't bring myself to laugh and smile like usual. maybe i'm thinking too much. maybe i'm caring too much. maybe i should just fuck care about some stuff and this will make my life happier. at times, i seriously don't know why i'm so tired. just tired. anyway, after emo-in and sharing of stuff, went to simpang to eat at 3+am. slept at 5+am.

melvin and i made a pact. i won't think of anything that got to do with relationship till my sip is over. yup. and i'll keep that promise.

what's home?
a place to sleep...
that's all.