ok time to blog... been quite some time since i've last blog. hmmm... *recalls

sunday(22july): was damn shag because i didnt have enough sleep! obviously~ slept for 1.5hrs only and then i got to wake up to meet chi kuan already. accompanied him to suntec to watch a band performance, after which, it was the dance performance. the dance performances were real disappointment. goodness~ tp's salsa dance group performed as well. er... *no comments. you guys should know what i mean. there were modern dance from rp and some other traditional dances. traditional dances were far better than the others? LOL. but seriously. especially a guy from a traditional dance. goodness gracious~ he's god damn good. he was very confident, went to extend that he made use of his eyes to be included in the dance, dance n everything were good. accompanied him and his other friends, who were from laselle as well, to eat and walked around suntec. my my~ i was too tired. i can even walk with my eyes closed. they went to harry's to drink and that's the worst moment of the day. LOL. why? because i sat down, feeling so tired already, it made me want to sleep even more! furthermore i was hungry and don't understand their language at all. music students~ hmmm... what else can you expect? LOL. it's ok. yawned quite a no. of times because it was damn tiring. then at 6.30, it was time for home sweet home~

mon(23 july): feeling tired still, right after project discussion and lunch, i went straight home! haha! miracle eh? my parents were shocked too! wth~ late they complain, early they also ask. wth~ anyway, slept from 3+ to 7+. one word; shiok! woke up for dinner, practised alittle for the presentation and then went off to bed at 2+, 3. finally i've replenished some energy... haha!

oh ya! saw the cute guy's back and side view only! man~ it was saddening la! hais~ but like what kat had said, better than nothing right... true though. alright.

tues(24july): went to school early to practise on the presentation. this is the scariest presentation out of the 3 years in business school. seriously.we're not allowed to exceed 15 mins. 16 mins max. if not, he'll be sarcastic and get angry. if you exceed the timing like 20mins, there's no need for q&z already. because there ain't enough time. we were like bullet trains la... not really but some of us. presentation overall was good except we suck at the q&a question. totally caught us off-handed. nvm. it's ok~~~

oh ya guess what? i'm nominated for robinson osip. weird right?! it is to me. but it'll be a good learning experience. especially when ms chan keeps on emphasizing that we're the 1st batch and we'll get to be involved in the opening of the robinson at KL. doing setups and vm and etc. woo~ that's my interest. anyway, quarreled with my parents so still haven't ask them about it yet. actually i didn't quarrel with them because i said nothing but went straight up to my room. LOL. ignoring whatever she had said. WELL DONE. peace to my ears because she realised that i'm not bothering about her. haha!

went to the airport with melvin. ate at breeks. the food was not bad. 1st-timers for us both. after breeks, went over to t1's viewing mall. alright. here comes the saddening part. i broke down into tears, all of a sudden. haha! melvin was shocked. didn't expect that to come. sorry about that bro~ i myself didn't expect that to happen as well. LOL. usual stuff for me. i'll break down into tears whenever i talk about my childhood. yup. don't make me say out everything again. i just hate my childhood and that's it. cried for quite sometime because i had to finish the story. got more and more emo whenver i recalled about the past. not something to be proud of but to some, my past may be. different people, different mentality. yup. whenever i talk about my childhood, i'll dislike my parents for sure. i didn't feel like going home. but i had to. called and called and called again. wtf. saying those words which they think they might make me feel guilty but sorry, they are not working anymore. no effect already. 1st few times maybe. but used too often, it does backfires ah... irritation, that's the thing. so sick of going home at times. not a place which i'm looking forward to. just hate going home. went home at 3am. this time round, i was too tired to shout back or etc. what i did was simply entering the house and walked straight up to my room and that's it. she shouted," can you please stop torturing us?" i'm like wtf? you are the one torturing yourself. you chose that and not me. exagerating. they can go be actor and actress already. maybe more for my mum. f*** shit.

and guess what? i haven't even discuss with them about the osip thingy. guess there's no need to already. take a step at a time then. oh ya! thank god this time round, she gave my allowance earlier! haha! *phew~

and and and... i saw the cute guy a few times round today! yeappie! hahaha! so shy so shy~ after presentation, saw him at the concourse. after presentation, saw him at the same place. i wanted to find a bench to do some work but all benches were being occupied except for the table next to his! goodness! you guys must be thinking that's a good opportunity right, BUT BUT BUT, me shy! hahaha! it's obvious he knows i'm looking at him. i think even his that "gf" also knows about it la! and and and, he was looking at my direction too!!! LOL~ lucky me~

melvin: bro, thanks for everything that you've done at the airport. the hug and shoulder were all i needed most during that time. i'm really glad that you are the one which i broke down infront of. i needed support; you gave it to me. i needed the listening ears; you gave it to me. i needed the patience; you gave it to me. thanks for everything once again... i really hope you can find the courage, ya? move on with your life...