i know i've disappointed and will disappoint more people if more people know what is going on...

i'm thinking if i should give it another shot again...
i'm very tired of even just thinking of the convers which just happened yesterday(26june).
he gave me is promise that he would change. but whether he will really change, that's another issue. but now the thing is i don't know what the end result will be. i need the end result to convince me that it's either going to work or not going to work.
but i'm so tired already...
work is piling up all the way...
time seems so insufficient now...

and once again, you take f* long to reply...
i've been waiting since the time i was at sports complex, waitin for jordan. that's about 7+pm.
now it's 10.30pm and i've once again, sent a 2nd msg and still, it's the same...
i thought you're supposed to build my confidence for this relationship but what's this again?
once again, i've sent a 3rd msg. foolish me.
melvin said i'm foolish. yes i am. i admit that when it comes to relationship but who isn't when it's for the one you have feelings for?

maybe like what you've said, time will tell...
hopefully, it will for me...
but i used to believe that time will show a clearer pic...
yup.

had dinner with jordan at bedok 85.
thought he broke up with his gf. ok, they've patched.
jordan: hopefully we're doing the right things for them... hopefully they do realise the things and effort we've put in and at least, changed a little... but how long could this last? how long can we take this? time will tell... we're just foolish creatures, ya? *cheers!

melvin: sorry... i know i've disappointed you greatly but turning back. i don't know what to say as well. maybe i need another hurt to really convince me to let go... i don't know... but i just want to concentrate on my projects 1st... if he's mine, he will be. if not, there's no point either... don't worry so much about me... you take care of yourself too, ya? *cheers!

off to the individual assignments...~~~