i've so much to say...

some things i really hope i can share with you...
but i'm afraid of making mistakes and as a result, making you unhappy AGAIN.
i've kept so much to myself.
you telling me about girls and etc, i, too, feel like sharing my eye candies with you.
but what would your reactions be?
you're jealous whenever i go out with guys alone.
what about you?
although you don't go out with them alone,
however, the way you speak to them on the phone, dating them out to join your guy friends,
have you ever considered my feelings?

last day of vibrant life, michelle actually fed you...
if it was a guy doing that same thing to me,
how would you feel?
i felt kind of uncomfortable.
the way you talk to girls and how you behave when with them,
seriously, i don't feel good.
that girl gave you a pen and that note,
i admit i was jealous.
you didn't answer my question but instead, you turn it around and shoot it back to me by saying, "so now you know how i feel le huh?" or similar.
ok. WELL DONE.
i always failed to get answers from you but always ended up getting shoot by you or you'll just get away with it.
i'm tired of finding or getting answers from you already. i gave up.
either you tell me if not, i won't be bothered finding out the answer anymore.
just like why you felt that we couldn't click.
doesn't really matter already because i'm quite prepared to give you up anytime when you feel it's impossible for us to carry on.
although we're doing these actions like a couple, i still didn't get the confirmation answer from you.
thus, i won't continue to put my feelings into this unknown relationship and will remain stagnant till i really get hold of the actual situation...
i think that's the best i can do for now...
i can't tell you how i really feel because i just know that these feelings will only put negative impacts on this unknown relationship...

just want to ask myself, why am i doing these for?
it's just so silly...
but like i've said earlier, i've fallen for him.
love is able to make someone do foolish stuff, which still makes that person happy...
that's love.
love is blind.