as usual, we quarreled.
this time round, i felt so cheated going all the way to his place.
after that he met eric then went to his cousin's place at jurong to play mj.
i went to his place because he said he didn't wanna go out. right.
he said it was unplanned.
i was still pissed because obviously i would be.
coming down all the way from tanah merah to his place, wasted my money on cab.
i should have went home from bukit panjang plaza at 9+pm.
i was totally pissed off.
but guess what? from his cousin't place, i took cab home! yeah!
while he continued to hang out with eric, knowing his gf was angry.
only know how to msg saying sorry. whatever for?
he thinks i'll be pacified over msg? ha!
i didn't know i'm so easy to hong one lei...
before i entered the cab, still say will find me later.
then after that msg me say find me tmr.
his words cannot be trusted, seriously.
his last msg was at 1 plus. after that he don't even bother already.
he still can msg me this earlier on.

his msg: who say. sigh. u angry i whr got mood to enoy. sigh. just now play mj i already sian le. cuz i know u v bored. sigh.

how contradicting that it.
no msg means he's enjoying till he forgot.
oh... he sooo can't enjoy man.
i sooo believe his words, really.

7+am msg me.
then 12+noon msg me, asking where i wanna go.
i said i dun wanna go out. yst kana scolding already.
he said huh... den tmr den meet?
i said y u cannot come n find me? only i can go find u izit?
after that no reply already...
u know, it's like so qiao. after tt msg, he fell aslp.

u know always we quarrel, i'm always the one ended up trying to contact him.
kept calling him.
i msg him sayin if he dun reach my hse by 3pm, then forget about everything.
it's 3pm already. well done.

in the letter i said, he gave me hope each time i wanna give up.
but this time round, he took away 90% of my hope.
by now, nothing is left, seriously.
what can i look forward to now?

whenever we quarrel,
i always get to see the other side of him.
that is always very contradicting to whatever he says.
he only know how to say.
but no actions done.
equals to bullshitting.
like i always say actions talk louder than words.

i really don't think i really matter that much to him...

my biggest fear now is when he enters ns,
will he be like junhao n alex like that?
paulynn n i discussed before.
that group of guys cannot make it.
alex always tell paulynn how important she is.
but his actions don't show.
fri he book out, he joins junhao n guys for drinking.
sat meet them to play mj and stuff n expect paulynn to hang along.
sun he needs to go to grandma's place.
paulynn n i shared the same views.
if we're really tt important,
then the time allocated wouldn't be this way.
so if he follows that way, he won't be the one for me.

i believe,
friends can be a lifetime, but not all time (at all times)
your partner (the one u believe is your the other half) would be lifetime and all time,
because that person would be the closest one in your life.

we shall see when he enters ns then...
but now, ha!
i'm seriously lost.
what can i do for now?

ha! i forgot today is our anni.
well done. i bet he've forgotten too.
anni so what?
quarrel also.

he saw me n him quarreling.
but yet, he still can go enjoying with him.
instead of asking him to settle the argument with me.
hmmmm...
diff people, diff views then.
tts all i can say.