ok bad day today.
i didn't know the cyst in my ear was actually a cyst.
i told it was because of heaty that's why it was swollen,
and would subside by itself.
but it grow bigger today.
so i went to see the doc.

the doc says i'm suay because normally it's elsewhere of the body or the ear lope.
but mine was at the back of the ear and it's near my soft bone, which was very dangerous.
but he said i was lucky enough to get it remove at this size before it grows any bigger.
so am i lucky or suay?
contradiction.
i'm on high dosage of antibiotics.
hoping it'll speed the recovery of the wound and stop the infection from spreading any further.
it can get as serious as admitting into the hospital.
so, these few days are most crucial.
normal medication, 2 times of antibiotics.
i'm on 3 times dosage, plus gastri pills for the strong acidic in my tummy and pain killers.
wow~

going back to redress my wounds on wednesday.
was given 2 days mc but of no use because next two days i've got presentations?
well done.
if the recovery is slow, the doc might have to stitch it up for me.
he said thank god it's at the back of the ear,
so even if there's a scar, it won't be obvious.
oh welllll....

what a day today...
actually, i had that cyst for maybe 1-2years already?
ever since i started piercing there, there has been a lump already.
but the doc said it might not be because of piercing.
no one knows the real reason.
faints~

so meanwhile, you'll see a weird left ear...
ha! hopefully it'll recover soon.
bless me then.

the process of operations,
minutes means like years to me.
i was shivering in pain and coldness.
the injection was the most painful part.
after which, it was all about the pressing and squeezing out of the cyst i think.
blood gushing out non stop because there's a hole...
i think he used some laser thingy because my ear had that burning sensation
and as mins pass, the burning sensation became stronger and more painful.
the worst thing is, you had no one with you except the doc.
all alone in the operation room.
you can never imagine the feeling.

just imagine, you just wanted to see the doc,
who knows you have to do an operation immediately.
i was in shocked.
after the operation, the pain was bearable but the fear got my eyes to tear uncontrollingly.
all i wanted to do is to go home.

life is so unpredictable.
seriously.