long post

ok. once again, i've got things to complain about.
as usual, she never fails to piss me off, seriously.
finally all presentations and projects are over except for RSO.
so we stayed back to rush on RSO, hoping to finish it by tmr so that we do not have to come back on friday to do. hopefully ah~
shamin and i didn't know what to do.
so we asked our dearest group leader, her, what can we do.
she actually answered this 'don't ask me what you guys should do. i'm not good at delegating the work ah. just ask me questions then i answer.'
ok. is really wtf. she's the group leader and she actually said that.
in the end, kat delegated the work. WELL DONE.

sometimes i really doubt what have she done so far, seriously for RSO.
besides editing out work to be in terms of departmental store, what other parts have she done?
she's just basically answering our questions because she worked in PRL before.
and you know how she compile our work?
she just merely copy and paste, withouth reading and editing our work.
WELL DONE.
she's lucky enough that there's no peer evaluation for RSO or RP2.
if not she'll die even worst than the previous 2 peer evaluations.
omg. she's really getting onto my nerves.
lets see tmr how it goes then...


digress for a moment...
sometimes i just feel that,
to guys, or rather majority of them, girlfriends aren't their top priority.
but to the girls, 99% of them, boyfriends are their top priority.
why is that so?
why are ladies so foolish?

i believe that in a relationship, we should try to balance everything,
including treatments and priority.
why bother putting in so much effort when the other may just be putting a low % of effort?
that isn't fair.
there's a saying that says 'higher hopes, greater disappointment'
by putting in more efforts, you're putting in more hopes as well.
you hope to receive almost the same or equal amount of effort as you've put in.
isn't it?

sorry but to say, i believe the phrase 'an eye for an eye'
i believe that you should always judge how much effort your partner is putting in.
like i've said and believe, usually the girls will be putting in more effort as compared to the guys.
if he doesn't worth that much, then don't bother putting in that much.
if he knows you're putting in that much and don't even bother appreciating or returning, then forget it.
there's always someone else in somewhere who knows how to appreciate you better.

for me, i see how much efforts my partner puts in.
if he doesn't make an effort, i won't as well.
why should one party be always the one making the effort?
the other should take the initiative as well.
even small little matters like msging, also matters.

every little or single action, you can see the effort and how much the other party treasures you.
as actions speak louder than words.
remember that.
why say so much but do none or so little?
like that who doesn't know how to say, right?
through actions, we feel the love, the effort and how much we're being appreciated and treasured.

in the past, i used to be rather sticky.
always wanting to msg the other party,
that resulted in the high amount of bills.
always initiating to meet and etc.
but now, i'm more relax.
to me i guess it's a good thing.
but to others, their partners might think that they have changed or whatsoever.

in a relationship, make yourself as comfortable as possible.
that's the way it should be...

i've learnt to take things easy.
somethings i don't bother already.
somethings i just take it easy.
nothing is impossible.
things can be just so unpredictable.
just go easy then...

take a step at a time.
that's all i can say.

future?
no one knows.
no one can predict.
what you've planned today,
might not work for tomorrow.
a plan is just to give you a direction.
but may not be the route that you'll take in future.

7 more days to cny,
14 more days to v day,
26 more days to end of exams,
as well as freedom!!!

time really passes this fast...
treasure time.