ok... back to blogging.
hmmm... i cried yesterday. yes yes. because of him again.
hais. this would be the last time.
read his blog and yup.
i guess i'm right about my guess again.
didn't hold back my tears...
thanks ice cream man. you never fail to know what's going through my mind.
tears rolled down eventually.
i removed his link from my blog and ain't gonna visit his blog nor his friendster again.
BUT, he so happen to post at the bulletin. *pengz. wrong timing.
it's ok... it's alright...
*cheers!

the night was emotional...
was talking to junwei and zieg. ok i think i've blogged about them already.
anyway, zieg, once again, tried to cheer me up. thanks!

ok. what's with today?
unlucky day i guess. yesterday i was still crying over him.
then this afternoon, i was having my group discussion at level 5, which i know his lesson was at the same level as well! i was just trying my luck and praying that he would take the cargo lift instead of the central life. BUT STILL, he walked passed the table with his bright green zara top. if i'm not wrong, i guess he saw me. because he was looking down. surely when you pass by the nearest table you would at least look in or whatsoever.
so, i guess i should do it that way too.
my heart stopped for a moment. argh!!!
but the cute guy appeared right after him. haha!
it was a good distraction and he's really cute! hahaha!
but then, he's only year1 from htm. :(
anyway, i have the feeling that he knows i beo at him ah. OMG. or maybe he thinks it's weird to see me at the table instead of being with htm people.
remember i clash their lecture every monday at 3-5pm? met him a few times there and he's always sitting near me. haha! one of my reasons why i follow bryan to the lecture. * smiles~
anyway. he turned around a few times and i have to quickly turn around. damn! LOL! ok. i sound like a sicko~ but still, haha!

anyway, after he left, it's back to reality. hais~
after group discussion, we headed for bubble tea.
guess what?! hais~
on the way back to the bus stop, i spotted a bright green top at the opposite bus stop!!!
it's him, smoking with marcus. omg! freaky~
i was praying that he won't walk up the stairs at that moment. quickened our steps and phew~
hais... it's my last year already... do i have to live in such fear?
what am i afraid of? the awkwardness when we meet. and... the hurt if time still doesn't heal those wounds fast enough...

omg. what happen to you, amanda?
i still need time.
that's all i can say...