he appeared in my life.
however, i ain't feeling very secured.
i've made mistakes. that's it.
constantly reminded by him.
i felt guilty. i've learnt and is willing to change.
but sometimes, i feel that we may not be the right ones for each other.
for the past few rs, i've always been the more dominant one.
for this, he's the one.
i don't mind and i'm rather enjoying it...
for once, i can be a little less ego and feel like the woman behind every success man. ha!
what a joke.
he taught me lots of things throughout this whole period, unknowingly.
i've learnt to compromise, understand and shouldn't be so spoilt when i'm in a relationship.
seriously, it's very helpful. advantages for me for sure. :D
sometimes it's hard for me to know what he's thinking.
seriously.
and this can be quite taxing because it's like playing mind games when i've to constantly guess of what he is thinking? *sigh
but still, i've fallen for him...
am i foolish or silly?
actions from him can be misleading. kisses and holding of hands do not mean that you're in a relationship with him already...
*i'm confused. status unknown. situation unclear.
he's still considering if i'm really the one for him... he's tired of getting in and out of relationship. so do i. for now, we really want to settle down for a very long term relationship.
that's why he's still considering and so am i.
it's ok for me because i'm still recovering from the previous relationship...
i, too, really need a long term relationship which can last till the future. that's the best, of course.
when can i meet the one? still searching...

he's starting to make me feel tired mentally...
sometimes i just feel so out of place...
he always talking to jocelyn about his feelings and not me.
then how the fuck would i know what he's thinking.
WELL DONE.
i'm so fucking tired. always got to be afraid of what i've done and have to constantly guess of he's thinking.
i thought getting to know more about his friend is a good thing. at least i made the effort to socialise with his friend then if in future, we ever meet again, i won't, at least, feel so out cast.
ok. i've done wrong again. i should have ignored his friend.
ok. he said that i should just go to bed when i felt tired and stop entertaining his friend. that's what i did. ok.
i seriously don't know why he has to call jocelyn for this.
ok. just because he felt both of us were emo. after which, they started to crap.

how i wish he can call me...