quarreled.
wanna break up.
thought finally took off den will be able to spend it with him.
nah. didn turn out tt way.
instead of restin and enjoyin, i spent it quarrelin n crying.
i was really disappointed as well.
5 days of full shift. finally an off dae is like winnin e top prize.
but instead, i lost even more.

quarreled over a prank call.
to me, it's scary for an unknown person to know where i stay and my hp no.
but to him, it's nth but just a prank call and he'll do smth when e person calls e 2nd time.
but for me, y wait till e 2nd time to happen when u can just stop at e 1st.
he assured me nth will happen but still, he cnt be with me 24/7.

so, i'm supposed to hop onto his cab at tanah merah.
but he only board e cab when i was at kallang station already.
i told him before to msg me when i reach tanah merah till i reached home.
y? b'coz smth happened to me at tanah merah e escalator going up before.
that's y i dun like e idea of waitin for so long at that hour and alone.
so quarreled.

reached my room, big quarreled till i really wanna give up.
totally diff views. cant communicate.
at our 7th month, we quarreled and i wanted to give up as well.
i said 7months of quarrels definitely beta den a yr of quarrels. tts y i wanted to end it. i knew e quarrels will nv stop.
quarreleds for 3hrs plus.
imagine ah, i woke up at 8am, stood for 12hrs den come back still have to face this type of thing, it's worst den workin and not meetin him.
i was totally shagged from work. taut can finally rest and be with him somemore. den hav to go tru hell agn.
den we sort of ok already.

den reach my room, he sae wanna send bilu off to perth.
i was kinda reluctant not because i got smth against her.
but i was already so f shagged already.
at tt pt, i really regretted. should hav let him go home den he can send her off while i can have my proper rest. i guess how shag i was nv crosssed his mind.
den argued over her, i used to have smth against her. it's like ur bf recommendin her infront of u. like i have said, u cant push a friend to me n said tt she'll be my gd friend. i need to slowly discover and understand her and not tru a 3rd party.
he told her not sendin her already. i said nvm, send her den.
when i sae send, i really mean it.
so he told her abt it.
but at 6+am, took a rest den i could no longer wake up. i couldn even move my body. f shagged.
if i'm stil awake at 8am, it means i'm like awake for 24hrs str.
he sae tt i was so tired den in e end we didn send her off.
but he was disappointed in me.
here comes e heart breakin part.
i know he was unhappy tt we couldn send her.
but it's not as if i purposely dun wanna send her.
when i sae smth, i really mean it. send means send but i couldn wake up so cnt send.
i know he'll be unhappy tts y i sae sorry already.
den gave my explanation.
but it seems like u're not takin it in...

u disappointed? i'm even more disappointed.
finally took a day off, hopin to enjoy e nite and day with u happily,
but it ended up tis way.
i apologized, hopin u'll forgive me den we can spend e rest of e day happily still.
but nope. u ignored me. u slept alone.
and i spent my day cryin and den resting.
i regretted.
u should have gone home. matters wont become worst.
and i can hav a proper rest and u can send her off as well.
but instead of restin, i'm makin myself feel even more tired and
even much worst den working.
if i know all these would happen, i would rather spend e dae working rather den meetin u.

during e 5days of work, i kept lookin forward to this dae. even if dey assigned me to work, i would request for an off dae as well to spend it with u.
u really duno how much i treasure this dae.
i already have so little time to spend it with u,
but it seems like u dun really treasure e time we can be tgt.
den forget it. jus keep ignorin me all e wan.
i seriously dun look forward to our next meetin day already.
no pt. later quarreled again. wad for den.



pull urself away from tis rs ba.
i dun see a future in tis rs except for more quarrels,
seriously.
to u, i'm jus a self centered gf who is full of her own views n everything.
always tinkin she's e only one sacrificin in tis rs. treatin tis rs as a game. puttin e word break on her lips everytime.
when we quarreled, i thought from ur pt of view tts y i gave in.
but tink from my pt of view too. y am i tinkin tis way...
y i wanna break it's not because i'm treatin tis rs as a game.
if i am, i dun hav to put in so much f effort n time.
i'm really sick n tired of quarrelin n i noe it's nv endin for us.
every few days quarrel. nv ever once we have a month without quarrels.
nvm. i dun tink i'm e one for u.

i'm pullin myself away from you...


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