he went to kukop yesterday with his soccer mates and families' members.
he came back today about 2.30pm at the custom.
he was supposed to pay a visit to my house after he reaches singapore.
but guess what he told me?
he'll be coming to my house in the evening.
not because he was going home to rest 1st then come.
but he's going to their house to gamble and play soccer.
seriously, i got no comments.
or rather i'm too pissed off till i can say nothing except expressing through tears of anger.
my tears just kept rolling down.

who does visiting at the evening?
come and eat a meal then sit awhile then go?
if so, i shouldn't have wasted 9hours at his cousin's place and 3 hours at his place before going to his cousin's place.
i should have just went at 8pm, just nice for dinner and left at 10pm.
just imagine on chu yi, i ate at 11+am at my grandma's place and i waited all the way till 8pm for my dinner at his cousin's place.

i'm really disappointed.
i don't feel secure anymore seriously.
i did send him a msg saying that i'm very pissed now and dun msg me le and etc.
if he still comes in the evening,
i think it really says it all.
then this will be the last visiting as well.

to me, i think it's a basic respect to visit in the afternoon at least and not in the evening.
but what's more is since he knows i'm really pissed off and yet stil coming in the evening,
i don't think he's the one for me then.
like i always say, actions talk louder than words.
that action will show that i'm not his top priority but rather, entertainment and play are.

gambling and playing soccer are more important than visiting my parents.

this year busy year for me.
cousin is getting married in sept for the wedding dinner and i'm one of her sister.
congrats!!!
she said she left a place for him.
still long then...
hard to say.


i think it's quite obvious i really don't feel secure and have much confidence already...


i really have the feeling that he'll come in the evening.
counting down...
to the revealing of the truth....