right... haven't been blogging for the past few days. gosh.
nothing much to update though...
life has been sucky for the whole week.
coming home late and getting nagged.

for god's sake,
what type of childhood do i have?
one filled with stress and hatred.
so what am i trying to do now?
getting back and making it up to myself for the lost freedom i had to go through during the childhood.
no one can ever understand or feel how much i've been through during my childhood.
NO ONE.
the last two people who will be able to understand, will be THEM.
thanks.

how's school?
macham like no school. wow~
whole week, i only have to go for retail branding revision lecture and tutorial.
i want my school fees back.
damn the lecturers. getting paid to do nothing. wth~

him...
the choice is clear.
didn't want to give up the other but it seems like * isn't putting in any effort too.
and what's more, falling for the one who put in more effort.
and feeling touched with what he had done. right.
it doesn't seem as if i'm needed in *'s life either. so it's ok then. i don't have to force myself to be part of his life. right. it's over.
yet the other, though we're like a couple but we're going without status.
i'm just not ready for it yet. sorry for the wait.
i've got fears in me which i need to overcome.
and i have other worries as well...
the feeling is on and off. goodness. doesn't feel good at all.
he met my parents today. hmmm...
but the day didn't go very well for me. hmmm.
nvm it's ok. don't wish to talk about it.
see how it goes then...
( continuing or turning back? hmmm...)