hais. why do i always have to blog about sad stuff?
why is my life so saddening?
hais.
it's ok... it's alright... i just have to learn to accept it.

yesterday night(15june), he told me he was going to msg me after his durian session.
WELL DONE.
no reply all the way till 7am.
i gave up waiting.
his msg at 7am(16june):" dear ah, 7hrs has passed and you really nv msg me. :( so sad. last time you not like tt de. i go slp le la. dun friend you already. anyway my mum just told me she wasn't able to book a dental appointment for me. the earliest booking date is around march next year, any polyclicnic oso the same. o.O so i gues i'll be gg to a private one afterall. hais double sad :( morning darling."
his msg woke me up. just imagine the 1st thing u read early in the morning is this type of msg.
how would you feel?
i was very disappointed by his msg.
i admit that in the past, i used to msg him twice to ask for his reply.
but after that, i got tired of it.
like come on, think about it...
why would i need a 2nd msg to get your reply?
don't tell me you can't hear the 1st ring but you're able to hear the 2nd ring?
don't make sense.
if you're free for the 2nd msg, why not for the 1st msg?
if you're able to reply, means you're able to reply.
if not, i'll just assume that you're busy and i'll wait for your reply.
FURTHERMORE, you said that you'll msg me after your durian session.
so, why does it seems like it's my fault now?
and this isn't the 1st time already...

you just spoilt my morning...
WELL DONE.
looking forward to your reply afterwards...

feel like giving up already...
no confidence at all.
you don't seem to care much about me either.
i don't know. don't want to trouble myself with this.
i'll just leave it to fate like what junquan and i always say...
it's ok... it's alright...