14 june 2007:
i slept at 6am...
enjoyed the chat with ice cream man...
was our 1st time that we had chatted for so long and it was enjoyable.
no regrets if you ask me to choose for sleep or to chat with him...
we both came to this conclusion;
we're not ready for each other yet.
we don't want any changes to our current status.
we're afraid that any changes will cause or affect our relationship
we just want to remain this way
and not losing each other in any way...
we'll leave it to fate to make the decisions...

woke up at 8am to give bryan a morning call.
slept till 9am and started getting ready to meet him
bought mac's breakky to school...
i gave him 2 calls before 10am, which was his meeting time with his tutor.
i had the feeling that he might be at home but didn't give it much thoughts...
i supposed he was rushing in some ways and was late already.
reached school at about near 11am with the mac's breakky.
waited till 12plus. sensed something is wrong.
gave myself the excuse that the tutor had too much things to talk to him about.
but what's there to talk about when the main reason is just because of his attendance.
nevermind. gave my doubts.
told myself that if by 1pm he still doesn't contact me, then i'll just leave for home.
went to the computer lab to entertain myself. called junquan to ask what i am supposed to do. left kind of lost. didn't want to waste my effort for sacrificing my sleep and making the effort to come all the way down to school with mac's breakky.
at 12.15, he finally called. he told me he's still at home and just woke up.
WELL DONE.
i was so fucking pissed off that i didn't know what to say and was trying very hard to hold onto my tears. i was in a computer lab!
after he hung up, i called junquan and finally, i released all the tears. didn't know what to say.
thanks ice cream man for accompanying me for more than an hour on the phone.
though you didn't know what to say, you being on the phone with me, it's more than enough for me already...
don't be silly...
thanks for being there for me...
his dad drove him down and really thank god his dad went home. if not, i'll be waiting for don't know how long again. WELL DONE.
his dad is a nice guy to talk with... but why is his son like this? *laughs!
was still pissed with him. gave him some face infront of his dad. if not,...
accompanied his dad to eat at a nearby coffee shop.
after we left, i was still cold towards him. i mean, who could ever cool down so easily...
we met at 2 or 2+! meaning i waited for? 3 hours!!!
he was pek chek too after asking if i'm going to be like this for the whole day. if i am, he would rather go home. i told him i don't know.
sat at the bus stop and waited for bus23. silence all the way...
board the bus, will still kind of pissed. finally, i gave in.
BUT INSTEAD, it was his turn. WTF~
after trying for awhile, i gave up and turn my head around.
thinking....~~~
then after awhile, he held my hand
i said," now your turn huh?"
he: " no la... just joking only ma. acting only. you can get angry then i cannot meh?"
-_-.

reached town, watched fantastic 4 but it's because i insisted on that.
i don't like the idea of watching a movie twice, no matter how good the movie is.
why waste that 7bucks man.
i would rather wait for the dvd or vcd and watch it as many times as i like.
was quite guilty conscious when he asked if i was going to watch oceans13 with guy(s). LOL
just kept saying no and don't know who to watch with.
then i started naming names like jocelyn but i got to wait till she finishes watching oceans 11 & 12. like wth~ as for pokie, she didn't catch oceans 11 & 12. so, yup. then he asked what about zhongwei, then i replied saying she has exams soon and was forbidden to come out of the house.
i got soooo few friends. :(

oh ya! he won delvin at billard, which was rare because delvin is always that accurate and delvin got angry. -_-. haha! *no comments.

anyway, after walking around heeren for awhile, he left to meet his mum.
home sweet home~